Life at A&M

Well, as most of you know, I am now at A&M, and have been here for a week, and it has sucked. The Corps really sucks. I am starting to reconsider the whole military thing. It's not hard or anything, and I am actually good at all the physical stuff, it's just boring and childish to me. I LOVE A&M and all the friends I have made here thus far, it's just I feel that I am wasting my time with the Corps. I am not going to quit only because of my buddies. My roommate was really cloase to quitting but we talked him out of it. The band part is cool too, just really strict with a lot of mean people who belittle you. I am excited about classes getting started and all the football games. I guess I will just see this year through and see what happens. A&M is where I need to be though. I also got a $5000 dollar scholarship the other day and will be traveling to Washington DC (again) to get it. That was pretty exciting. Things have been healed with my family and everything is better now. I miss them now more than ever. How ironic from several postings ago. Wish me luck. Till next time...Danny (aka fish Hernandez)

Three Days

It is so hard to believe that I will be moving out in 3 days. I've been packing all day. For lunch me and Margaret went to Chili's in Decatur. It opened today. I had such an awesome time at Fish Camp. Everyone at A&M is so weird and crazy....like me so I was excited. So many cool people, I can't wait to go. Things are also better at home. I hope everyone is doing great and ready for school. Gig 'em Ags.....Danny

Tears for Nothing

The past 24 hours have not been very good. I have realized a lot of things about my family. My aunt and especially my uncle hate me, for reasons I do not know. They think I am selfish, lazy, irresponsible, and headed no where. These are the words straight from my uncles mouth, last night at about 2 AM while we were arguing. Yeah, I've been crying but what else is there to do. I don't cry very often but you don't know how bad my aunt and uncle, who have raised me for the past 14 years, made me feel. I know I am not any of those things they think I am. I have 2 full rides to A&M. TWO!!! My senior year I stayed on the A Honor Roll, I had a part time job, I was the president of four organizations, I volunteered over 100 hours of community service, I ended up 3rd in my class, and I took extra college classes after school. I guess thats not enough for them. Not once have they ever said 'good job' or 'we're proud of you' or 'congratulations.' I try so hard to make them proud and this is what I get in return. I am ready to go to school, but I am just worried about my brother and sister. None of this is going to change. They won't stand up and say something like I will. I wish I could go to court and get custody of them but that would hurt my grandma so much, and it would be so hard for me to raise them and go to school. I just can't believe everything I am finding out about them. My aunt is so two faced. I asked her about something my sister told me and she made up some lame excuse to justify her actions. Then she went to my sister and asked her why she told me the truth, and that she needed to stop making matters worse. I hate that the person that I've looked up to as my mother is turning out to be like your stereotypical stepmom figure. I prayed so much last night. Mainly for my brother and sister. I am so worried about them and they are all I care about, along with my grandma. Also this morning we got into another argument and I was scared to ask my uncle to use his car so I didn't. I didn't have a ride to work so I had to quit. He hates me, and he's not going to let me use this car so I have no way to work since I wrecked my car. I hate bumming rides off of people. I let my aunt and uncle use $500 and they probably aren't going to pay me back so it's going to be hard getting my car repaired. I just don't see the reason behind all of this crap that we're going through. I sometimes have to sit and wonder if things would be any better if my parents were still alive.

Please pray for me because I don't want to cry anymore -Danny

Muff

Everything is going. Things are still bad at home. I am desperately looking for a car because if not I don't know how I am getting to school. This Sunday I am going (hopefully) to Fish Camp in Palestine. I'll be there until next Wednesday. Then on the 21st I'll be moving down to A&M forever. I guess I should be excited but I've lost it all within the past week. Keep praying for my family. -Danny

Sixteen Days

Yes, 16 days until I am gone from Paradise, Texas. It is a bit scary and I am wondering if I am ready. I've been getting all this stuff in the mail from A&M just letting me know what to bring, when to be there, what to expect, etc. I have been running 2.5 miles everyday to get ready for the Corps of Cadets. I am just scared that I won't be ready, or that it will be too demanding and my grades will drop. Everything is really strict and there are so many rules. It is all military regulated so its going to be tough but I think it'll be fun. They tell you how many pairs of underwear to bring, how many pairs of socks, jeans, number of towels, and everything else. And to make things worse you have to wear briefs, no boxers or boxer briefs. That is going to suck. As long as I make it through my freshman year I'll be okay. Our football schedule is as follows:

Sep. 3 @ Clemson

Sep. 17 home vs. SMU Mustangs.

Sep. 24 home vs. Texas State

Oct. 1 home vs. Baylor

Oct. 8 @ Colorado

Oct. 18 home vs. OSU

Oct 22 @ Kansas State

Oct. 29 home vs. Iowa State

Nov. 5 @ Texas Tech

Nov. 12 @ Oklahoma

Nov 25 home vs. THE NASTY LONGHORNS FROM THAT SCHOOL IN AUSTIN

AND we are supposed to be decent this year. The band is always kick ass, and that is all I am worried about really. It helps however to have a kick ass football team as well. On October 20 the Marine Corps Band is preforming at A&M, on November 8th A&M is marching at the UIL State Marching contest at the AlamoDome, and on December 4th we are marching in the B/CS Christmas Parade. It all seems exciting, and I am excited just worried about whats to come. Everything here at home has been the same. Well I got in a wreck last week. I was driving behind this SUV and they braked, so I braked too cause thats what you do, and it was raining really hard and I hydroplaned into the back of them. I went under their SUV and it messed up my entire front end, so so much for getting a new car for school. The SUV was unharmed. Also, my friend Cara who is in the hospital is doing tons better. They have killed most of the cancer cells that she had and she may not need a bone marrow transplant. My family also came home Sunday night so once again it is very noisy here at home. Everything is good though, still working, and tonight I have a picnic to go to for all current students and alumni of A&M, here in Bridgeport for peopel in Wise, Montague, and Jack Counties. It should be fun. Well thats it for now, Gig 'em -Danny.