Tears for Nothing

The past 24 hours have not been very good. I have realized a lot of things about my family. My aunt and especially my uncle hate me, for reasons I do not know. They think I am selfish, lazy, irresponsible, and headed no where. These are the words straight from my uncles mouth, last night at about 2 AM while we were arguing. Yeah, I've been crying but what else is there to do. I don't cry very often but you don't know how bad my aunt and uncle, who have raised me for the past 14 years, made me feel. I know I am not any of those things they think I am. I have 2 full rides to A&M. TWO!!! My senior year I stayed on the A Honor Roll, I had a part time job, I was the president of four organizations, I volunteered over 100 hours of community service, I ended up 3rd in my class, and I took extra college classes after school. I guess thats not enough for them. Not once have they ever said 'good job' or 'we're proud of you' or 'congratulations.' I try so hard to make them proud and this is what I get in return. I am ready to go to school, but I am just worried about my brother and sister. None of this is going to change. They won't stand up and say something like I will. I wish I could go to court and get custody of them but that would hurt my grandma so much, and it would be so hard for me to raise them and go to school. I just can't believe everything I am finding out about them. My aunt is so two faced. I asked her about something my sister told me and she made up some lame excuse to justify her actions. Then she went to my sister and asked her why she told me the truth, and that she needed to stop making matters worse. I hate that the person that I've looked up to as my mother is turning out to be like your stereotypical stepmom figure. I prayed so much last night. Mainly for my brother and sister. I am so worried about them and they are all I care about, along with my grandma. Also this morning we got into another argument and I was scared to ask my uncle to use his car so I didn't. I didn't have a ride to work so I had to quit. He hates me, and he's not going to let me use this car so I have no way to work since I wrecked my car. I hate bumming rides off of people. I let my aunt and uncle use $500 and they probably aren't going to pay me back so it's going to be hard getting my car repaired. I just don't see the reason behind all of this crap that we're going through. I sometimes have to sit and wonder if things would be any better if my parents were still alive.

Please pray for me because I don't want to cry anymore -Danny