Reflections Through iTunes Shuffle

My last post was August 11th. Its been...a while. Overall I can't complain on how things have been. Days come and go, most of the time its the same stuff, just different days...everything revolves around what is going on in the Corps. I have been trying to get things done all day, and during that time I have had a lot of time to think...hence I decided I would post a new blog for my avid readers :)

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Now all those feelings,
Those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind

Left the only worries I had in my hands
Away from the light in my eyes
Holding tight and try not to hide how i feel

Cuz Feelings mean nothing ('Yesterday's Feelings', The Used)

FOW came and went. It was a bigger transition that I thought it would be. We met the fish. Several of them cried. As of now we've had five quit, leaving twenty six. Honestly, we have the best fish in the band. I have a great deal of respect for all of them that are still here, and even for those that are no longer part of B Co. A lot of my buddies however differ in their views of the fish and their views on training the fish. Like last year, I am still learning and I have learned a lot through being a direct trainer/ example to/for the fish. The Corps has its flaws. A lot of them.

Is it worth it? Definitely.

Is it a waste of time? Sometimes.

Why do I do it? I wonder sometimes. For my buddies maybe....for me...leadership? Honor? Notice the question marks after most of those. Buddies is probably the biggest reason I am still in the Corps. I will never meet a group of people as amazing as them. They are my family away from my family. I enjoy being a sophomore (a pisshead) because I'm not a fish. I hate being an ass. I wish there was a way I could do my job and not be criticized for my approach. I train different from the other sophomores....I'm not as intense...but I think I am effective. One of the fish who quit told me and one of my buddies that he had the most respect for me. This is why I do what I do. I am doing my job! This is something the fish see, but not upperclassmen. For this reason I think I will be overlooked when it comes to choosing positions within the outfit for next year. I've been considering going to Corps Staff or even Band Staff for next year. I love the Corps, I really do, but it has lost so much respect by many. Its not what it is supposed to be. I think on the Corps level I could help change things that should be changed...same with on the band level. The band is crazy...I have been hanging out with a lot of people who are not in the band and talking with them. I see why they think the band is crazy. The band does a lot of things when it comes to training that are ridiculous and pointless. And then we wonder why we don't compete when it comes to grades....hmmm. I am currently working on my 1st Sergeant application. I don't expect to get it; but several of my buddies want me to apply. Honestly, there are only two people in my class that I would like to see as 1st Sergeant. They think like me. I think the end results of the outift are important. I think the future of the outfit is important. Are others thinking of these things? Are others thinking of change? If so, why is it just the outfit level? Anyway...enough bitching. I swear, I am in a good mood :) All I can say is that I am excited about being a Junior. Then I can finally be me, and not a pisshead. :..

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You must not know about me,
You must not know about me.
I could have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin,
You're irreplaceable ('Irreplaceable', Beyonce)


Relationships. I had one over the summer. Amazing. It really was. It ended in mid September, on semi bad terms. Okay, my mood may be changing soon. It was determined during the summer that I was going to be busy. The Corps is my life, and on top of that I also go to college, meaning I take classes. I am also in the band. I get up before 5 am every day. All of this was established before the relationship was. So, why is it that all of a sudden it was a big surprise that I was always busy. I am sorry about that, I really am, but after a while you really got on my nerves. I didn't want to be with you anymore. The feelings I had for you were gone. My priroties became the Corps, school, my organizations, you. I got home late, I went to sleep late. I just didn't have time. I am sorry you didn't understand. This is why it ended. Then...we decide to go out one night, possibly to see if maybe we could get back together, try to work something out. We both knew the purpose of going out that night was to try to work things out. And you make out with someone else in front of me and later tell me it was to make me jealous. If you liked me as much as you said you did...hell you said you loved me (even though I never once said it back)...no matter what, you would have never done that. Yea I was fucking jealous. I wanted to kick his ass. He wasn't that big anyway. I was pissed. And not only was I pissed about that, but we didn't go out alone. We went with your friends and one of my friends. They knew we were sort of together, and you pull that shit. That shit = immaturity on your part and a lack of respect by not only me but everyone around you. Congratulations. You meant a lot to me. The times we spent together were pretty amazing. But you ruined it. Then you still call me for like three weeks on a daily basis still wanting to get back together. "You must not know about me...." You wondered why it was so easy for me to move on. I was tired of you long before that night. I didn't want to be an ass though, and I did see the possibility of another chance. You confirmed what I usually believe. If I don't think someone deserves a second chance, they probably don't.

My wish, for you,
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you're out there gettin' where you're gettin' to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish ('My Wish', Rascal Flatts)


Above: my feelings after the break up.

Now: my feelings in the present. I hope you are doing well. I wish you the best. Maybe one day we can catch up. I hope you had a good birthday too. That is all :)

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When you love someone - you'll do anything
You'll do all the crazy things that you can't explain
You'll shoot the moon, Put out the sun
When you love someone

You'll deny the truth - Believe a lie
There'll be times that you'll believe you could really fly
But your lonely nights - have just begun
When you love someone

When you love someone - You'll feel it deep inside
And nothin else can ever change your mind
When you want someone - when you need someone
When you love someone... ('When You Love Somone', Bryan Adams)

I admit, I am a little depressed now. (just a little though) What the hell is love? Will I ever find it? I see it all around me and I compare myself. Will I ever find someone...that someone who makes me feel like that? I was talking to one of my buddies the other day about this...(thanks Tyler, lol) and I told him that I don't think I will ever get married. I want to have like five boys but raise them myself. Reasoning: those that know me well know that I am very independent, somewhat forceful in my beliefs. This may sound ridiculous but I don't know if I will ever find someone that I trust enough to raise my kids the way I want them to be raised. What will they tell them when I am not there? I don't want my kids brainwashed by some crazy person....not that my spouse will be crazy, but you never know. It scares me sometimes to think that I am so weird that I will never experience true love. So many people say that know what love is, but do they? In my opinion love is like self actualizaton. Something so amazing...yet so farfetched. Overrated? Maybe. Lol. I do want to fall in love....I just don't see it happening....unless you are Desiree Padron, of course :)

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Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray
I haven't done this in a while
So I don't know what to say but
Lord I feel so small some times in this big ol' place
Yeah I know there are more important things, but
Don't forget to remember me
Don't forget to remember me ('Don't Forget to Remember Me', Carrie Underwood)

So, I saw my family for Thanksgiving. We went over to a cousins hous and it was awesome. Thinking about them makes me wonder about a lot of things. I know they struggle through a lot. Money sucks, as always. And here I am, living the life in College Station...or something like that. The thought of quitting college and moving back home to help them out has crossed my mind several times...that would be stupid though. Where would I work? Construction? As a waiter? Yea right. College is what I am supposed to be doing, even though sometimes I feel really selfish being here. Also, my sister is a senior; my brother a freshman. I am missing out on so much. I feel like I barely know them. They mean the world to me, and I rarely talk to them. That's pathetic. I am going home for Christmas break in three weeks, so that'll be good for me. I am also planning on spending the summer in Paradise, working and taking classes. I've been looking at internships though...I dunno yet. Is that selfish? I just don't know....

Some pics from the Day of Thanks:



Me, my uncle and aunt. Amazing parents and people.



My Grandma and I. I love her like no other.



My brother, sister and I. These kids are awesome.



Tony and Stacy again.Tony is a Tech fan so it makes me angry.



Me and my cuz Maria.



Me and my cousin Cristina....see its not that bad of a pic :)



My new baby cousin Pablo, or LIL P!

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Dear son, I know I ain't written
But sittin' here tonight
Alone in the kitchen
It occurs to me
I might not have said this
So I'll say it now
Son you make me proud ('Letters From Home', John Michael Montgomery)

This used to be one of my favorite songs. It always got me so excited and motivated about joining the Marine Corps. I've gone back and forth about joining or not....well I'm not. My knees are way too messed up. I am on the Corps marathon team (I am running a marathon in January in Houston) and after training for a few weeks, my knees started bothering me again. I was pretty mad and upset. I was in the middle of my Marine Corps contract as well. I know other doors will open, but I was just really motivated and excited about being an officer. Oh well. 'This too will pass.'

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Pressure, pushing down on me
Pressing down on you, no man ask for
Under pressure, that burns a building down
Splits a family in two
Puts people on streets ('Under Pressure', Queen)

Now its time to PUMP UP THE JAM!! Or not....Aggie Football is just something I could not pass up talking about. Our season:

1. The Citadel...we won 35-3.

2. Louisiana Lafayette...another win, 51-7.

3. Army in San Antonio....close game, we won 28-24.

4. Louisiana Tech...another win for the Ags, 45-14.

5. Texas Tech...our first loss, and a depressing one. 27-31. I hate Texas Tech and everything to do with them or Lubbock, Texas, the STD capital of the world. I hate them more than I hate UT. Yea, I said it.

6. Kansas, at Kansas....a win. 21-18.

7. Missouri, another win and a good game. 25-19.

8. Oklahoma State at OSU...another away victory for the Aggies! 34-33. Way too close of a game. Especially for it being against OSU.

9. Baylor at Baylor. We were away, so we won :) Score 31-21. Suck on that Bears.

10. OU. 16-17 loss. Depressing. And it was to OU. O who? Yea...

11. Nebraska. Our second loss in row. 27-28. And both games by only one point, making our combined points we lost by a mere 6 points. Talk crap about Aggie football I will talk crap about you.

12. UT in Austin. I am sure the world has heard....WE KICKED SOME ASS!! A&M beat UT for the first time since 1999 and the 8th time in Austin ever, 12-7. If we were picked to win, or if we beat UT on a normal occasion it would'nt be a big deal, but we don't so it is and will remain a big deal until something else AWESOME happens, like me getting nominated to be Secretary of Defense or something, you know like our university President. Yea, is your University Prez gonna be Sec. of Defense...didn't think so! Everyone always talks crap about A&M. Well now its my turn....and I pick UT.

As I said earlier, I hate Tech more than UT, but the fans yesterday were so rude to us. (Tech fans even more, but I feel the occasion is right to trash talk UT)

First of all, I think its pretty sad that because we have a huge jumbotron, they feel the need to build one bigger. Well its only bigger in length not width. I know, that counts as 'bigger' but its not better. On the subject of how 'size matters,' Texas A&M has had the biggest football venue in Texas for some time now...well guess who is upset about that. You guessed it, the Horns. Well news for you queers...we're building ours too, so just because you will have the title for a bit, we're gonna get it back.

Overall the football game experience at UT was fun, but not as fun as Kyle Field. Kyle Field definitely lives up to its name and anyone who has been to a game there can agree.

I went to Midnight Yell at the steps of the capital surprised to find a large crowd of UT fans doing their own little pep rally thing. I thought it was a tradition, but come to find out, those people had nothing better to do but to come and try to ruin our yell. Punks.

And whats up with the band? I love watching the Texas band. Last year they even had an awesome show. This year was not impressive. And is all they know is one cadence? I know the Aggie Band isn't much of a cadence driven band, but we don't play it constantly, even while their team is on offense.

And whats up with booing your own player when he's hurt. Thats shows the world UT.

And for the good part...pictures collected from the trip to Austin :)



You suck Horns!



Seriously, do I need to trash talk, or does it explain itself? I stole this pic from Sarah because it goes well with my mood. Austin is a fun town...bigger than CS....but just strange...in the words of Sarah Childs, 'not my cup of tea.'



Another weird pic...a random Ronald McDonald statue chillin in front of a random building....wow.



Only at UT is "Crocs" a sponsor.



Longhorn fans tailgating in a parking garage....they're so cool.....trash.



This guy is confused....A&M cap, UT sweater. hmmm...he probably took off the sweater :) Gig 'EM Ags!!



This is a cool thing the band did before the game with the Texas Flag and all...I was impressed until....



Yea, that is a picture of UT ROTC. (the guys in the long sleeve white) And yea, notice the flag being wadded up and notice it halfway on the ground. Double Trash.



You can't really tell, but they are shoving the flag in a bag. Is my trash talking justified...I think so.





I thought this was hilarious. Near the end of the game they put people in front of the Aggie section so we wouldn't get onto the field when we won. Notice its a 14-16 year old girl and like an 11 year old boy, along with women aged 40-50 (the lady in the blue behind the yell leader) in the picture above this one. When I saw them I knew there was no getting past.



2:32 left in the game. All that happened after this was the quarterback got hurt again. (the Horns booed) and we intercepted the ball....again :)

OKay, okay, enough bad mouthing. They are an excellent school. Yesterday only served as yet another confirmation that I am where I am supposed to be. I am proud to be an Aggie, today more than ever.

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There are times in life when you gotta crawl
Lose your grip, trip an' fall
When you can't lean on no-one else
That's when you find yourself
I've been around an' I've noticed that
Walkin's easier when the road is flat
Them danged ol' hills'll get you every time
Yeah, the good Lord gave us mountains
So we could learn how to climb. ('Mountains', Lonestar)

To end and sort of wrap this novel up, I put a excerpt from this song. I heard it for the first time on the way back to College Statio yesterday. It really made me reflect, and was a big reason why I decided to post. Things are only gonna get harder. Finals are coming up. I am struggling in my favorite class....talk about irony. But thats why we have mountains...so we can learn how to climb. Until next time, God Bless and as always: GIG 'EM!!

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You Know You're a 90's Kid If...

Body: Anybody under the age of 16 will not get this. Just because u were born in '92 doesn't mean you're a 90's kid. It's not like you could remember the original Simpsons.

You know you're a 90's kid if...


You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"

You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air"

You've worn skorts and felt stylish

You yearned to be part of the Baby-Sitters club

You use to love playing with your MY Little Pet Shop

You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"

You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.

You wore a ponytail on the side of your head and had fluffed bangs

You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.

You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in kindergarten

You remember reading "Goosebumps"

You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off"

You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.

You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.

You remember the craze then the banning of slap bracelets and slam books.

You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence...Not...

You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green Ranger were meant to be together.

You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up"

You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates

You ever got injured on a Slip 'n' Slide

You wore socks over leggings scrunched down

" Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black, black, with silver buttons, buttons, buttons, all down her back, back, back" SHE ASKED HER MOTHER MOTHER MOTHER FOR FIFTY CENTS CENTS CENTS TO SEE THE ELEPHANTS ELEPHANTS ELEPHANTS JUMP OVER THE FENCE THE FENCE THE FENCE"
he jumped so high high high he touched the sky sky sky and he didnt come back back back til the forth of july ly ly he jumped so low ow ow he stumbed he's toe oe oe and thats the end end end of the elephants show ow ow

You remember boom boxes vs. cd players

You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare"

You remember Alf, the little brown alien from Melmac and Vicki the Robot from "MY Little Wonder"

You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool

You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell"

You played and or collected "Pogs"

You used to pretend to be a MIGHTY MORPHIN Power Ranger and you owned a Skip It

You had at least one GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere

You watched the original Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Ninja Turtles

All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.(pencils.notebooks.binders.etc.)

You used to wear those stick on earings, not only on your ears, but at the corners of your eyes.

You remember a time before the WB.

You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"

You thought it would be so cool to be Alex Mack.

You know the Macarena by heart.. LOL

" Talk to the hand" ... enough said

You thought Brain woud finally take over the world

El Fin

Yea, so basically this is my last night of absolute freedom this summer, and I choose to spend it on myspace. What a loser, right? Nah, actually I've been crazy busy, and I am just relaxing tonight, mainly because I have no money :( I finished my last night at Jose's about an hour ago. It was the hardest job to leave because I really enjoyed it, the money was good, and the people there were really nice. Summer went by way too quick. I want it to be over....but then I don't. The Corps starts soon....I haven't decided if its a good or bad thing yet. The Corps is one of those things that you love but hate all at the same time. I don't think I am in good enough shape. I tried to gain weight this summer...I don't think it worked. I am worried about money way too much. I shouldn't I guess....but I am. I have come to several realizations this summer though.

1. It's easy to be lazy.

2. I am a country & FFA lovin white boy trapped in a Mexican's body. Its time I face it.

3. Being on your own is fun, but its tough. My family is just a phone call away. I know I do need them.

4. Money sucks. Budget or you will end up paying for your gas in pennies.

5. Love could possibly be right under your nose and the way you figure it out is by taking some shots of Bacardi, Cuervo, and Vodka, along with 3 or four Gold Margaritas. (YIkeS!!)

6. Age is just a number....but it still matters. If one number is over 18 numbers bigger than the other....thats a little too much.

7. I am close to understanding the most complicated thing I have ever come across....me.

8. No matter how much you hate something, you can still have fun doing and learn a lot.

9. A citation does not mean a warning.

10. Life ain't always beautiful, but its a beautiful ride. Some people are jerks. Some people are ignorant. Some people are really stuck up. Some people lie. But in the end, everything really does happen for a reason.

This has been a really amazing summer. I think I say that in every blog. I can't wait to start a new year. Hopefully this time next year I'll be getting ready to get my Aggie Ring. I have a lot on my plate and its time to get serious. Well not now, but in a few days. I miss a lot of people. Random. Sister Act II is a good movie. I just watched it. I am tired now so I think I am gonna get to bed so I can get up early and pack. I don't know when I will have time to write next but hopefully it will be soon. My brothers thing is in a week so I get to go home for that. Can't wait to see everyone. I got him his gift....I spent a little too much, but its worth it I think. Well hope everyone is doing well. God Bless.

My Brain is about to Explode!

I seriously need to write before my mind exceeds capacity. Honestly not a lot has been going on, but then again I am stressed, anxious, excited, and happy about everything going on and about to go on....anyway...I ended my blog last time being stressed about my brothers party and my two jobs. Well in that aspect nothing much has changed. I work like crazy trying to get enough money to pay for the party, pay a loan, a credit card bill, put a down payment on my senior boots, have spending money for the school year, and try to help my family out in whatever way I can. I recently got my first traffic ticket, so I have to pay that too. With the traffic ticket comes a funny, memorable story though. Well my friend Erica has been planning to go to a soccer camp down here at A&M all summer long, and she had been planning to stay with me. She lives in Decatur and I was supposed to meet her parents half way to bring her down.Well that didn't work out so I went to get her at around 8 pm on the Sunday before last. Me and my friend Jay left to get her. Usually it takes me about 2.5 hours to get home....a usual 3.5 hour drive. Yea, I go super fast. Bit I was telling Jay how I had never gotten lunch detention ever in high school, or after school, and how I planned to keep a perfect record. Well when I get into Paradise, (4 hours later by the way) a state trooper pulls me over for going 68 in a 60. The stupid thing is that I passed him and I knew he was behind me, but I didn't think they could clock you from behind....I'm an Aggie, mind you. Well he did and he asked me where I was coming from and stuff, and I told him we were both students from A&M, and I think thats why he gave me a ticket. I know it sounds dumb, but I am for real!! After I told him we were Aggies he stood there for a bit and I was so sure that he was gonna let us go, but no. He's like "Well, I'm gonna have to give a citation." And stupid me, I was like, "Oh thank you so much," because I thought that meant warning. I was like "Jay, whats a citation?" Well anyway, now I have to take defensive driving so that sucks, but oh well. I didn't tell my aunt either, so I am trying to do this without her finding out, so everyone, lets keep it on the DL :) Anyway...we picked Erica up and drove back. It was almost 1 am by the time we picked her up and we still decided to go to a club in Ft Worth. I met this cool homeless black guy though on the streets. I swear people know I am country when I say 'Howdy' to everyone...and I mean everyone...and I start conversations with homeless people. I am so naive, and I have yet to learn my lesson. We got back to College Station super late and I had to work early Monday morning. It was fine though, and I had a super time with Erica down here with me. We had a lot of fun and did some crazy stuff. One night we got a little....'light headed.' Lol. That was so crazy. I don't do that often, but it was fun. Erica was really messed up though...I won't go into details for her sake, haha. We went clubbin and out to eat like a million times. We had some good talks and she met some of my friends down here. Some of them I regret introducing her to, but whatever. I love my Erica! She definitely had fun at the club and at camp....right Erica? ;) I took her home Sunday and came back to CS for work on Monday. Erica's visit seriously was the best part of my summer. I can't believe it'll all be over in like 2.5 weeks. Its been awesome. I started out with a few friends here, and now I know so many more people. I kind of got into a small relationship, but not really. It never worked out. Whats weird though is that I met someone at the beginning at the summer and we've hung out, talked, had fun times, and now we're dating. I never saw myself dating them, but I've never felt this way for anyone. I am at a really good point right now with most things. Some of things not included are being in shape and my faith. I started out the summer working out like crazy and now I am super fat. I think I gained the freshman 15 in like 3 weeks. Not really, but I am out of shape. Also, I don't feel as close to God asI did in the early parts of my freshman year. There are just so many questions I have, mainly about the Catholic faith, and some aspects of Christianity in general. Don't get me wrong, I am a firm believer, I just don't understand why one huge aspect is divided into minute separate religions with different viewpoints. Does this make sense? I tend to question a lot...sometimes dumb questions...sometimes ones no one can answer. I am thinking og putting my two weeks notice in at Sonic. I get tired of it, despite how awesome the people are. The other day I dropped a box of like 40 extra long weiners, lol. I think my manager was mad. And yesterday I spilled half a bottle of watermelon slushy flavoring. I think he was mad again. I had to clean it up and my hands are still kind of red from it. As for now I am going to enjoy being with my boo and working till the 13th when I return to A&M to get ready for the nasty class of 2010. My brothers thing is on the 19th. FOW officially starts the 20th. Classes start the 28th...and the stress begins. I'll be managing a job, a relationship, classes, the Corps, the band, being an Exec for an organization, planning a high school conference for November, and getting ready for the Marine Corps. No sweat, right? I am a Mexi CAN, and plus, I'm an Aggie :) Until next time, Gig 'em, and smoke '10.

One Month Left...

Well things are good. Crazy, as always, but I am contempt and happy with everything going on. My life has been very stressful lately, but its all little things. I haven't really been looking at the big picture lately, however I have spent a large amount of my time focusing on the day to day problems that never seem to end. I have found another job, but I am still working at Sonic. I like Sonic. It has become 'fun.' The managers are cool and the other employees are frikin awesome. I found another job at this place called Jose's Fine Mexican Food. Its one of the one thousand Mexican food places in Bryan-College Station, however this place has 'fine Mexican food,' hence, the name. Basically it's a nice, semi-fancy place to go eat Mexican food. I work there part time and the money is really good. Most days I work at Jose's from 11-2:30 and and work at Sonic from 2:30 to 10ish. Crazy. I know. But it keeps me busy, and it keeps my mind of other things. Money has sucked lately. I had $0.18 in my account the other day. I am working of course, but I just have a lot to worry about. My brother's quince anos thing is coming up. I am in charge of the surprise gift. He is having a quiceanero with my cousin, so its a 'two-in-one' sort of thing, like most Mexican parties are. So, there is a lot of competition, although its not mentioned, so...my gift has to be better than my cousins gift he receives from his gift patron. I have a few ideas on what to get my brother, but I am not sure. Honestly, this gift is a big reason I got a second job. I was thinking of getting him a PSP. Thats my main idea. Any others? I also wanted to get him like some new clothes from like Abercrombie, Hollister and stuff, cause he doesn't wear that stuff usually. It would be nice if he did though. I need to find something to wear to the party too. Its supposed to be a big deal, like 200-300 people, maybe more, depending on what else is going on in Wise County. BTW, the party is on August 19th at the Pavillion in Decatur, for whoever is in the area, and wants to go. Everyone is welcome! It should be loads of fun. But anyway...I got to go home for the Fourth of July, but came back the next day. It was good to see everyone, as always. I have a month exactly before I have to be back for FOW. Its gonna go by super quick. But I gotta run, so I'll write more later. I hope everyone is having a great summer.

Brad, Keith, and Me

The semester is almost over. I guess you can't really call it a semester though...its only been a month. I am glad classes will be coming to an end though. Hopefully I will get an A in both of them. It looks like that may be a possible possibility. I am still working....at Sonic. I don't like it even more now. I was working at this one Sonic close to where I live. There are like six Sonics here in College Station. Well I didn't like the job, but the people there are a lot of fun and I was getting to know them, when they transferred me without telling me about it! They are opening a new Sonic that isn't even a real Sonic. Its like a normal fast food restaraunt; you go in and order and sit down and eat or you can go through the drive through...weird, right? So yea, that sucks. School is eh...but my birthday was good. I went out to dinner with some buddies and me and Lianna went and watched Nacho Libre. Yeah, I fell asleep. I thought it was going to be good because I like dumb movies like that, but yea it sucked. Wow, things are sucking a lot more than usual...I guess I didn't realize though. Well something good that happened....yesterday I found two stray kittens near a dumpster so I brought them in with me. They are gray and white...one has long hair and the other one has short hair. I am assuming they are related. I was thinking of names and I thought of two boy names and two girl names. Well, the cats are both boys so I named them Brad Paisley and Keith Urban. The girl names were Shania and Carrie Underwood. But yea, they are real nice cats except the peed on my blanket last night!! I was mad but then I just figured I would let them use it to sleep on and stuff. My roomate is gone so its nice to have some company. I am gonna put pitures up later. I made an awesome dinner last night too. I usually don't cook, but I felt like it yesterday for some reason. Well I made spaghetti with meatsauce and mushrooms. Yum. I also made corn on the cob...well I didn't make it or grow it, but you know what I mean...and garlic bread, for dessert chocolate chip cookies, and to drink a homemade strawberry lemonade. It was my first time to make it and it was definitely amazing. Lianna came over and had dinner with me...well she loved it :) I can't believe how fast this summer is going. I have a little over a month before I have to be back for Freshman Orientation Week...meh. I get to go home next week if all goes as planned. My people need to come visit me! I get bored. But atleast now I have Keith and Brad, lol.

'Cause I'm Bossy!

Haha...I've been called bossy twice in the past week. It's funny, because I am not bossy, (Joey!). I just like things done right...well anyway...I felt like writing since I have some free time. I did something stupid, yet again, when I was driving the other day. Well I was just coming home and I pulled up to a stop sign, and I guess I wasn't thinking, but I was waiting for it to change colors or something, lol. On the road I live on there is only that one stop sign, and like a million traffic lights, so in my defense, it is very easy to get them confused! I was so embarassed though because the people behind me started honking after a while, lol. I felt so dumb. But anyway, classes are going good, I guess. Theatre Arts is so frikin boring, and there has not been a day yet this week that I haven't fallen asleep in class. I didn't even go today, mainly because I stayed the night with my friend James, and we stayed up late. We went to The Tap, a bar here in College Station. I can't drink, but it is still fun to go because on Wednesday nights they have a piano bar and the guy takes requests and makes up his own songs. Its really funny. I actually saw Josh Grace there last night. It was cool, I guess. I got my first test back in my Sociology class, and I got an A as well as a compliment about my writing from the Prof, one of the few, so I was very excited. I am one of the youngens' in my class, as I am in most of my classes, so Prof's are always skeptical about your abilities. I've been meeting a lot of new, really fun people. I also got a job....at Sonic. I've worked twice. It sucked the first night, but last night was better. I may stay there, but I have an interview at TJ Maxx tomorrow, so I guess we'll see. I wanted to work at PetCo with all the animals but they aren't hiring. Oh well. I hope that even though I am working I will still have time to do my workouts. I was doing so good and I loved my schedule before my job. I went to an Abs and Back class like 5times a week, Yoga twice, and Hip-Hop and Step Aerobics twice, and then after each class I would run. I loved it, and Desiree has been advising me on how to eat healthier. Of course I splurge sometimes, and no I am not trying to lose weight, I am just trying to adopt a healthy lifestyle so I can be in better shape. I am pretty much set on joining the Marine Corps, so I will need to be in amazing shape, not just good shape. But I've got several compliments on my stomach, and personally I don't even think it looks that great....it'll only get better :) On a more depressing note, yesterday was the 14 year anniversary of my parents deaths. I can't believe its been that long. Tony will be 15 this year, Stacy 17, and me 19. I always think of where I would be if they were still alive. A&M? Paradise, even? Its hard to think about stuff like that but I am very thankful for what has been given to me, but its like I had to pay a price for it. Saying the word 'Mom' or 'Dad' out loud is so weird to me. I dunno....its weird living without them, but it has given me a sense of independence since a young age. But yea....sorry to get all depressing, all of a sudden. I will be 19 in 11 days...yay......no big plans as of now, but who knows. Guess thats it for now. Thanks for reading and God Bless!

Week Two & Lessons Learned

Well its my second week here at A&M. Everything is great. A lot of my friends are home, so it has given me the opportunity to meet some new people. I have had a lot of fun, but I have yet to find a job. I even applied at Sonic, lol. For real, thats no joke. But, no one has called me, so I am going to continue to the search tonight. Today is 6-6-06....the only importance that serves to me is that The Omen is coming out. That movie looks crazy and scary, so me and Lianna are gonna go see that tonight, to get the crap scared out of us. It should be fun. I am watching MAD TV right now. I love MAD TV. I had forgotten how much I missed tv....its a really amazing invention. My favorite commercial is that T Mobile commercial with that family talking really fast to each other, like an auction, in order to save minutes....LOL...its so funny....well anyway...I've had two embarassing moments in less than 24 hours. Well they aren't really embarassing when I do them, because I don't realize how dumb they were until later during the day. Well the first was last night, I was coming home from the rec on campus. I was never aware the you couldn't drive on the median. Well I turned off the main road onto another road where I have to turn off of to get where I live. Well there is a median that goes for about a mile and a half until I have to turn, so I immediately got onto it and drove all the way until I turned. People were honking and stuff. Its okay though, its easier to drive on the median because there are no cars so I can just go. Lol. Well the other thing happened today in class. I am taking a class called Minority Groups for my major....its self explanatory, we talk about different minority groups, not just ethnic groups though. Well lately we have been talking about ethnic groups, and today he asked what are some deragatory or stereotypical names people use to refer to certain races. Well I started naming some off, you know like wetback, cholo, beaner, so on. Well one girl turned around and just looked at me, and then I realized that it was a joke, a rhetorical question, that he didn't expect an answer to, just because of the nature of the question. I am pretty sure I turned red. It was funny though. Anyway...I am really sore. I have been trying to work out everyday, which has been going pretty good, but I feel like I am not working out hard enough, so I started attending classes that the rec center has. I've done an abs and back class the last two days, and DAMN. The girl teaching it is more hardcore than any PT sessions in the Corps, lol. Well I better go get dressed and go keep looking for a job. I have phone push tonight...the movies....meet up with a friend...just hang....even though I should study. I am having fun though. Gig 'em!!

It's Been Over a Month...

I have been meaning to post lately, but I guess I've just been really busy. Well the Spring semester finally ended. I ended it with a GPR that IS above a 3.0, so I am very excited. The Corps is dead now. I kind of miss it, as crazy as they may seem. It has only been like 3 weeks. But I can't wait to come back this fall. This summer is going to go by really quick. But after Final Review and stuff I went home and really did a bunch of nothing. I went to some graduations, saw a lot of friends, family, you know the usual. I wanted to work, but didn't. I wanted to get stuff done for the Corps and for school, but I didn't. It was good to be home, as it always is. Well I came back to College Station last Sunday. It has been really good so far, but no luck finding a job. I am taking 6 hours so its not too bad. I have already met a lot of awesome people, and I think this summer is going to be great. I am watching Friends right now, and I honestly don't feel like writing, so nothing profound or intelligent today. Sorry.

Hell Week

Oh manwhat a week! It has been extremely crazy, and its not even over yet. The week began Sunday afternoon at four when the tradition of Hell Week began. Hell Week is something that happens the week before March to the Brazos. At March to the Brazos the freshman get the rights to be sophomores in their respected outfit. In the Corps you dont just become something, and nothing is handed to you. Everything is earned. By everything I mean everything down to the underwear you wear to the haircuts you get. To make Hell Week be true to its name the upperclassmen put the freshman into extreme levels of stress. This week they took away a lot of our things and we learned to live with the bare minimum. We took 109 second showers, (as a class of 18 males), we had to do everything VERY quickly, like brush our teeth and get dressed into full uniform without brass on it. It doesnt sound too bad, but it got crazier as the week progressed and they took away more things. Friday afternoon we got smoked (smoked is a term meaning punitive physical punishment like a million pushups, sit-ups, etc). Well, we went to Spence Park and started out by doing buddy carries, (where you run with someone over your shoulders), and we did pushups, monkey bar exercises, running, and pull ups. Then the crappy part.we had to low crawl in a river of sewage. We low crawled, then we did back crawls, and then we did 109 sit ups while sitting in the sewage. In case you didnt know, sewage tastes nasty. (And the 109 thing..we are class of 09 so everything we do pertains to this number). Well, March to the Brazos was this morning. The entire Corps collects money for the March of Dimes, and the March to the Brazos River, I guess is just a way to show what we are doing. Well we marched for about ten miles. We got there, got smoked, they gave us our sophomore brass that we wear on our uniform to show what year we are, and then we marched back. It was crazy, but kind of cool at the same time. It was cool marching there, because we marched through highways, back roads, then brush, trees, mud, etc. Then we got what wed been working for all week. But then.we had to march back, and it had gotten really hot, and we were all really tired. Well, I am back in my room now, my legs hurt, and I have blisters on the bottoms of my feet from all the walking (and running), and I have little red spots all over my legs probably from the sewage. I also only got about 2.5 hours of sleep last night, so I am very exhausted, and ready to go to sleep! At least phase one is over. Now on to phase three and four. In phase three we will earn the right to call upperclassmen by their first names and we earn the right to be called our first names, and not fish. Then in phase four we earn the right to be an actual part of the outfit, and we get our outfit t-shirts. I know a lot of people are wondering why I put up with all of this. I am so glad I cam back. I have never felt a sense of accomplishment like I do here in the Corps. You learn not to take anything for granted, and you learn about responsibility, time management, and integrity. Nowhere else can you learn these things in one place, especially to the extreme that I am learning them. I am going to try and put some pictures up from today if I can. This blog probably rambles on and probably doesnt make sense at times, but keep in mind I am running on 2.5 hours of sleep. After Tuesday everything is over, and Ill be a sophomore in B Company!!! Wednesday and Thursday there are no classes, and Friday I have my first final. I am shooting for above a 3.3, so wish me luck. Gig em, and as always, take care.

April Showers

It's raining outside. I love it. It is definitely April weather, complete with thunderstorms. And...its Thursday, meaning all I have to do is make it through Friday (which are always questionable), and then its the weekend, meaning.... dancing at MARGARITA ROCKS!!! I'm pretty excited. Aggie Muster is also tomorrow night...never been, so I guess I'll get to see how that goes. Muster is one of A&M's may traditions. What happes is that 'On April 21st, each year, on the anniversary of the Battle of San Jacinto, Aggies gather together, wherever they are, to commemorate fellow Aggies, who have died during the year. This tradition was begun April 21, 1903.' (<-- I had to memorize that.) So, whenever I die, no matter when it is, I will be commemorated by my Aggie family. I think thats really cool, and thats one of the things that makes A&M so unique from other universities. Lately, things have been going pretty good. I have basically one week and one day left of the Corps. Next week is going to be pretty bad, mainly because we are earning everything to be a sophomore. We've have been doing training drills lately, to get ready to train the fish next year, and I have really surprised myself at how mean I can be sometimes. I like it. :) Of course, its only when I have to be....I'm not a mean person....usually. My brother would probably argue otherwise. Speaking of...I got to see my family over the weekend. I went home Thursday for Easter. I saw basically everyone, including family I hadn't seen since Christmas. It was pretty cool. I wish I could go home this weekend for Christy's quince, but I won't be able to :( I love seeing everyone at home, but I can only be there for so long before I get annoyed at certain things. So much goes on behind my back that really pisses me off. My aunt has mood swings that really get on everyones nerves. I try to get my brother and sister away, because I know they get annoyed with a bunch of crap as well. I feel bad for them sometimes, but I tell them just to work hard so they can get out of there. They get the raw end of the deal, and I feel bad being so far away from them. I care about them a lot, and I hate seeing them upset. It is my sister mainly that is upset when I go home. I hate it. She has been talking about coming to A&M, and that would be so awesome if she can make it. We would have a lot of fun down here together. As for Tony...I don't know what he wants to do. I honestly don't think college is for him, as of now anyway. Maybe he could join the Marine Corps....live out one of my other dreams. Anyway...I've bene planning my summer, and it doesn't look very fun. Final Review is May 13th....I will go home that day. On the 15th I will start a May mini-mester class (Intro to Theater). I'll be home for arounf three weeks. During that time I have two graduations: Bridgeport and Northwest. I know like 10 people graduating from BHS and one (Maria)from NHS. Then at the beginning of June I will come back to A&M to start my Summer I classes. I am signed up for two classes right now, but I may go down to just one, depending if I find a job, and how much time I work. Then in July I will be taking more classes, probably one or two, depending on my schedule. I should get aorund 12-15 hours this summer, making me a Junior, and leaving only one year till I get my AGGIE RING!!!! WHooP!! Anyway...school...thats what my summer consists of, however it should be kind of fun since I will be living with a friend in his apartment, working, and no Corps to worry about. I'll have lots of time to utilize the rec as well, and I will have a car down here. My brother is having his quince this summer too, so I will be going back and forth to help with all the planning as much as I can. I am just ready for the summer to get here. The summer brings new routine and fun (hopefully). Guess thats all for now...until next time, take care.

Praying...And Then Praying Some More...

I really should try to post more than once a month. A lot happens so quickly and I get overwhelmed, and then realize that I haven't updated for my avid readers. I guess the last time I left off it was still March...things were still going smoothly....and there were over 50 days left until final review. Only 30 days now. Things aren't so smooth, and as a matter a fact they are very rocky. Well...I had to drop Calculus. It was probably mainly my fault. I let myself get behind, and it was too hard to catch up. I probably could've caught up, if I would have put forth the effort early, but...I didn't. I went to Margarita Rocks for the first time on Latino Night...I had a lot of fun. I went with some Corps friends, and we all had a blast. I applied for Executive Staff on one of my organizations (MEDALS). MEDALS puts on a high school conference at A&M for mainly minority students form schools around Texas. Well, was interviewed and I got the position....I am Director of Finance. I was really excited about that, and I met everyone else on staff, and they are all really cool. I am the only male. That situation seems to happen often, and I haven't quite figured out why. Last week was Senior Hell Week. It started out by all the fish stealing our Commanders stuff out of his room. By stuff I mean everything he owns down to his underwear and bedsheets. We even took his Aggie Ring and Senior Boots. Yea, well he and the rest of the seniors were pissed. We had to complete all these crazy assignments and we got smoked a few times. But it all ended Friday on good terms, and resulted in them 'dropping' with us, meaning they told us their first names and we told them ours....its tradition, and we usually address them by Mr. or Mrs., whatever. And the stealing of the stuff is tradition also. Every fish class steals their commanders stuff and they go through hell basically until they give up, or until the end of the week. We made it till te end, and honestly there were times that I wanted to give the stuff back. We had to switch roomates through that whole process also, and I got put with Johnathan (Urbanosky). When I first got in there I really did not have much to say. We aren't similar. He is a country boy who likes hunting and fishing, and 'white' people things. He's a redneck in other words, and I don't mean that offensively. People call him that, and he calls himself that. Anyway, by the end of the week we both knew each other a lot better and had a lot to talk and joke about. It was a good experience in that sense. Friday night was the start of Parents Weekend. My family couldn't make it because my uncle was still in Mexico. He went for his Grandpa's funeral. And Thursday I received some bad news that would have me traveling home for a funeral. My friend from Upward Bound, Bioleta Garcia, was killed in a car wreck in Decatur. Nancy called my phone and left me a message. I immediately called my aunt and asked her if she knew anything about it. She said no. (which was a lie, as my Grandma later informed me. She had known since it happened and didn't call me, knowing how good of friends me and Bioleta had been in the past) Anyway, I am over that part. Talking to my aunt I just broke down. I couldn't believe it. I had not seen Bioleta in a while. I knew Bioleta since the ninth grade. We both entered Upward Bound together, and we went to the same church in Bridgeport. We spent the summer together at UNT, we worked together last summer, and also went to DC as a group with UB last June. We had a lot of good memories and a lot of inside jokes. We became the closest probably my sophomore year. We spent hours talking on the phone, or on MSN, mainly about nothing. I nicknamed her Poca-Tonta...the Poca because she looks like Pocahontas...the Tonta because she was so retarded. I loved making fun of her because it was so easy. In DC she flushed her cell phone down the toilet by accident. When she appied for a job at Pizza Hut she had to take the multiple choice test...well you aren't supposed to write on the test- she did. And she had little side notes next to some of her answers. I asked her what those were and she said explanations to her choice of answer. She was so crazy. We grew apart as we got older....and now I regret that more than ever. I went home Sunday, went to the memorial Sunday night, and the funeral Monday morning. She was buried in her wedding dress, because she was engaged, and three months pregnant. They played a video slideshow with her pictures and the first song they played was 'Who You'd Be Today' by Kenny Chesney (the song currently on my profile) I broke down once again. I don't know why people die so young. I have been to so many funerals, you'd think I would be used to death by now, but it seems that it gets harder and harder each time. The part that sucks though is that I am only 18 years old. I have been to over 20 funerals and I am still very young. I will go to another one, unless I am next to go. It could be any day. I'm just scared to think of who it could be. I pray its not one of my family members. I don't want to see anyone die. I don't think I could handle it. I really don't and I am almost in tears just thinking about it. I don't know what I would do. I got to see Desiree, and after she left I just thought so much about how much I love her. She is me in a females body. She is so amazing and if something happens to her, or my sister or brother.....please God, I can't go through something like that. I am so scared. I understand what happens when someone dies. I am not scared of death, really, but I am scared I guess of being able to cope with the loss. To all my friends I love you all. I wish I could take everyone out to eat and just talk and hang out. I wish I didn't have as much to do so I could make time to do that. But I don't. So, please be careful wherever you go. God Bless you.

Well, I'm going home again tomorrow for Easter. I'll be back Sunday to finish up the year. Until then, take care...really.


OKAY....Bioleta was not buried in her wedding dress. Someone told me that, but I guess they were wrong. My bad.

Y Soy Rebelde...Cuando No Sigo Los De Mas..

Not really, but that song has been in my head since I left Mexico last week. Overall things have been alright. Not amazing. Not too terribly sucky...but alright. The last time I wrote we had just BEAT THE HELL OUTTA TEXAS in Basketball. That was all great and everything, until the next day when things took a turn for the worse. Some of my fish buddies got caught 'pulling out' privileges that fish don't have and talking bad about the upperclassmen so things got really bad, really fast. We weren't allowed to leave the dorm except for class, we weren't allowed to use our computers, the upperclassmen trashed our rooms, and crap like that. A lot of other stuff happened, and during this 4 day period I got really down. It sucked so bad. They would go into our rooms, yelling at us, and then they would dump out our drawers onto the floor. Mind you, I don't live like a normal college student. My life is strictly military regulated. I guess in a way we kind of had it coming, but still. It sucked more than I can ever express in writing. It was over a lot sooner than I expected. On the 4th I met one of my scholarship donors at a reception. His name is Mike Dillingham, and he is a very cool guy. He is a WWII vet and A&M class of 1935. We spent a few minutes talking, and he was actually a guest speaker at the reception. It was really awesome to get to meet one of the persons who is helping fund my education. It makes trying harder, easier...if that makes sense. Then we had our last week until SPRING BREAK. It went by really quick, and I was home Thursday afternoon. Friday morning I went up to Paradise HS, and spoke to the band about the Aggie Band. No one was really interested except for one kid, but everyone thought the band was pretty cool, just crazy, which is true. I went and saw some of my old teachers and stuff in my uniform, and they were all excited and a lot of them told me I had gotten really skinny. I've gained 5 pounds since I started school!! I wasn't fat in high school.....damn. It was good to see everybody, cause its been a while. I hope to go back once after school ends here, which is only another 52 days, counting today. On the Saturday beginning spring break, I went to Azle High School to volunteer for the Math-Science meet there. Math-Science was something I was very avid about back in the day. I helped out the kids I used to teach last year, and I helped in the grading room, where I got to meet a lot of amazing educators. I really think I want to do something in education. I have always liked doing stuff with kids, and teaching just seems to be my thing. I could get my teaching certificate and everything else as planned, then go to Grad School to get my Master's in Education Administration, so I could be a principal or something. One of the teachers I talked to said that a lot of schools, especially in the Metroplex, are wanting an administration that is proportional (race wise) to the student body. The schools are paying for these educators (Hispanic men and women) to get their Masters. I could be a principal of a school in less than 10 years if I want. I just think thats amazing. And maybe law school will fall into place. Everything happens for a reason, so I'm gonna keep an open mind and run with whatever I think fits. Well, anyway...Saturday night we left for Juarez, Chihuahua, Mexico to visit my Grandma's sister, Esperanza, and her family. I was hesitant on going mainly because I had a lot of homework to do, and I wanted to get some work in at the Grill for some extra cash. Well I went, and it was fun. I met a lot of my Dad's side of the family whom I had either never met before or not seen for over 15 years. There were three particular parts of the vacation that stand out to me. The first was the party everyone threw for my Grandma. My Grandma's birthday is in April, but they wanted to celebrate it a month early so she could be with her sister. It was fun, and sitting in the kitchen, as I recorded everyone and ate my tres leches cake, I was so happy that I went to Mexico. The untiy between Mexican families amazes me. There were about twenty of us sitting there in a small living room of a two bedroom house. There were not enough chairs, but everyone was having so much fun, and enjoyed seeing each other. I grew up in a white town, and used to be so ashamed that I had a big family, or other things about being Mexican and even being Catholic. I can tell I am growing up and I am having new experiences that allow me to open my eyes up a bit and see how wonderful the Mexican culture is. Everyone is so close knit. The day after the party we went to 'el Centro' which is the center of Juarez where there a shops, and street vendors selling their stuff. It was fun, yet depressing at the same time. There is a lot to see, a lot to buy, and very cheap prices. It's just that there are so many poor people who are on the street begging for money. Little girls will come up to you in the little they have to wear, with their hand out in front of them, wordlessly asking for some change. It is so hard to say no, but the Mexican government doesn't want tourists giving kids money, because this keeps them out of school. It was sad. I don't know if this is cool or not, but you can find a bunch of DVD's that haven't even come out yet here in the States. Of course, they are pirated, many of them copied from actual DVD's, some of them copies of the actual theatrical showing. Yea, we bought a few. The prices ranged from $2-4. I bought some CD's too, including both RBD CD's. RBD are the people who sing the song 'Rebelde' (the song I quoted in my title). They are a pretty cool group and sing Rock/Pop en Español. It is a huge fad in Mexico. RBD stuff is everywhere. Also while in the Centro we went and visited the Cathedral's. As we went inside I looked around and saw all the people praying. There were homeless people in there and then other ladies who were just there praying for hope, luck, money, who knows. They were just there giving one more chance at something that they needed in their lives. During that time I took a look at my own life and realize how much I have. No we may not live in the best, biggest house, no I don't drive a 2006 Mustang, no my uncle doesn't have the best paying job, but I have a big family who loves me and who is so proud of what I am doing. Along with that I have clothes and some of the best friends anyone could ask for. I get fed three times a day, I have a roof over my head, and I am getting an education and one of the top universities in the nation. (WHOOP!!) What more could I ask for, right? Well the same things those people in the church were asking for, except, truth be told, they need it a lot more than I do. All I really need is guidance and discipline to do the right thing with the riches I already have. I also read this really cool Lenten quote inside the Cathedral, but I forgot it now. Speaking of Lent, for those of my Catholic friends who think it it is okay to eat chicken on Friday's, I looked it up:

Q: Are chicken and fish considered meat?

A: Chicken yes, fish no. The Catholic Church's abstinence laws consider that meat comes only from animals such as chickens, cattle or pigs-all of which live on land. Birds are also considered meat. Fish are a different category of animal.

See!! I knew my priest knew what he was talking about! Well anyway...I was just doing some reading about Lent, and why we do it and stuff, and it is really informational. The website is americancatholic.org. I suggest it if you have questions about the religion as I do. Anyway...Juarez....I also got to see one of my mom's sisters (my aunt), who lives there now. She has a store, and some really nice kids. Well, we left Juarez on Friday night, got back home Saturday, and I came back to A&M on Sunday. So far this week has been alright. Nothing too bad, yet, but I know its coming. I am not going to Costa Rica anymore, officially. I am doing Relay for Life with the Corps here at A&M. It is A&M's first year to have it so it should be pretty exciting. I have a debate today (woohoo) and a Calculus test on Friday (sssssssss). Campaigning is going on right now for offices...I'm not running, but for all you Aggies wondering who to vote for for SBP, PIC NIC!! He's a pretty cool guy. Parents Weekend is three weekends away....Big Event is this weekend....Easter is four weekends away...Aggie Muster is five weekends away....March to the Brazos is six weekends away......and FINAL REVIEW is eight weekends away!!!! Only 52 more days, trying to tak it one day at a time. Well I guess thats all for now. I had a lot to write about, but that pretty much sums up my thoughts and all that is going on right now. Not much really, just getting ready for the end of my first year.

We Just BTHO tu!!!!

Word just in....Aggie Men's Basketball just BEAT THE HELL OUTTA Texas!!! WhOOOP!!!

Snow, Sunshine, Elimination, and the Talking Deer

Eight more days until spring break. I am very excited. I am leaving College Statio for Paradise next Thursday. No big plans yet. I may see if they need me to work or what not. I am also planning to get some x rays done on my knees. Something is going on, and they hurt like crazy. Today is Ash Wednesday. I went to the 7 AM mass this morning and got my ashes. This Lent I am giving up all drinks except for water. That includes juice, coffee, tea, etc. It'll be tough, but I can do it...I'm Mexican, member? You member....haha. Well I got to go home the weekend before last. It was good to see everybody. I suprised my family and stuff. I was supposed to come back to school on Sunday, but the weather got really bad, and it snowed a little bit, so I stayed an extra night. I came back Monday, and it was immediately back to the Corps life, and studying like crazy for midterms. I still have two left next week :( I got eliminated for the lead sophomore position. I kind of expected it though. It'll be okay, and now I can focus my attention on other things. I took another PT test, and my run improved a little bit. I am almost down to a 9 minute mile and a half. That pretty good for someone with short legs like me. Today, the weather was beautiful. It was around 80 degrees; perfect weather for shorts and flip flops. Luckily, I got to wear my uniform :.. Monday we had fish interviews. What happened is that we got into uniform, and went down to a lounge for "an academic meeting." Yea right. They called two fish at a time to go back into the dorms and have their interview. This interview consisted of you and your buddy going down a dark hallway while the sophomores yell at you. You do pushups and bear crawls, (in uniform), until you get to room 309. You go in, and its a room covered in trash bags with two chairs, a plastic deer mount, and a computer screen playing very disturbing images, Well we sit in the chairs as the sophomores yell at you, and spray water on you, and as one of them dances around you, practically giving you a lap dance, in his white briefs. Well while all this is going on the deer mount asks you off the wall questions that you have to answer. It was very crazy, and scary at first, but after it was over we were all laughing. Yea it could be considered hazing, but I can't wait to do it next year. I got a 93 on my sociology mid term WHOOOP! Off topic, but oh well. We're playing a huge prank on our commander so I'll write later on how that goes. Until next time, Gig 'Em!!

You Can Look at It, As Long as You Don't Grab It

I have one complaint. Calculus sucks. I had my first test today. I am hoping for a C, even though I think hoping for that may be a stretch. Thats it.

Everything has been exceptionally awesome lately. Nothing is different really. Same stuff, just different days, but I have just been in a better mood. My voice still hasn't completely came back, so now its been five weeks. I think its permanently like this, but some people think its sexy, so hey hey. This past weekend was amazing. We went on that fish trip I was talking about in my last blog. Let me try to explain something about the Corps. The are four different branches. I think one is like a Navy/Marine branch, an Army branch, an Air Force branch, plus the integrated Band brand. Within these branches there are outfits. Like in the band, for example, there is A Company, B Company, A Battery, and B Battery. Each outfit in the band is made up of around 60-80 people, compromising rhe 300 member band. Well in my outfit, B Company, we have 23 freshman, (fish). As a freshman you learn to follow, then as you get older you learn to be a leader in what the Corps calls its four tier program. Anyway, as a class of 23 fish, we really have to get along and do things together in order to function properly as a unit. The thing is that we go through the same shit, and we live in the same hall and stuff. We have to get close, and we are for the most part. Thats one of the main things I love about the Corps; the comraderie. I love my buddies, and I would do anything for any of them. They are like my brothers and sisters. Lately though, the class has been divided, so the main reason for the fish trip was to get closer to one another. It worked. We started talking on Saturday night...it led to an argument, to tears, to a ery deep conversation. We talked about our lives and about who we were before the Corps. It was really amazing, and we all learned a lot about each other. I'm glad we went. We came back Sunday in time to help one of our senior's in our outfit with his proposal to his girlfriend. One of the many traditions at A&M is the Century Tree. Its a huge tree the hangs over this bench on central campus, and supposedly, you don't go under the tree unless you are with the one you plan to spend the rest of your life with. So what our senior did was he lined up all the freshman, scattered until they reached the Century Tree. Each fish had a rose and as his girlfriend walked by we gave her the rose until she reach the tree, where he was waiting. Then he proposed, and she said yes. It was really cool. All the Corps stuff has been getting harder and harder. I don't know but I am really motivated about it. I like it when I beat people at stuff. It makes me motivated because I was definitely not the athlete in high school, and here I am really athletic. Today I ran a 9 minute mile and a half. And my abs hurt like no other mother, but you can see the six pack coming. WHOOP! Valentine's Day was yesterday. I expected it to be just another day, but it was pretty good. I did not expect anything, but Evette sent me a card in the mail. It says a lot of nice things, and it smells really good. It really made my day. Now its Wednesday...half the week is over, and I get to go home this weekend, so I am REALLY EXCITED. Thats about all for now. Until next time, GIG 'EM!!!

Because the Glass is Half Full

After reading a few of my past blog entries, (and from talking to Evette) I have realized how negative I have become lately. Everything 'sucks,' but everything is not supposed to suck. Things are supposed to be great because, hey - I am at frikin' TEXAS A&M!! I guess lately I have just been down because of many factors, but now it's time to bring the self esteem level back up to the way it was before Christmas break. Everything is good...I've just been complaining a lot lately. I think a lot, and I keep a lot to myself. I try to use myspace to vent and to reflect on what is going on, and it definitely helps. Bascially what I am trying to say is forgive me for all my bitching lately, and things are going to change for I am going to return to my optimistic, I LOVE LIFE, self.

As for my life now, everything is great! I am getting better at the Corps stuff, and I am not as behind as I thought I would be. Classes are going good as well, although Calculus seems to be kicking my ass at times, so I am going to have to work extra hard with that. I am glad its Friday; a time to relax and not think so much about school or the Corps. This weekend I am going to Urbanosky's house, with the rest of my buddies, for a Fish Trip. Kind of like a road trip, except his house is only about 30 minutes away. My mind is so dead right now. I just got out of Calculus and I almost fell asleep. I am trying to adjust to different schedules throughout the days to see which one worls best for my busy schedule. I am not a morning person so getting up at 5 am doesn't really help. The Steelers won the Super Bowl game, so thats good news. Honestly, I didn't really care but with all the 12th Man copyright stuff going on, I had to root for the Steelers. Last weekend I also went to see 'When a Stranger Calls,' twice, once with Diany, Angie, and Gabby, and then once with some of my fish buddies. Don't go see it twice, but it is an okay movie to go watch. It's not really scary, although some of the girls in the theatre sure did think so. I would bet that some of them shit their pants. But anyway...I am going home this coming up weekend, so I am really excited about that. I can't wait to see everyone, although it will be a short stay, I'll try to see whoever I can. All I can say is EVETTE, you better make time for me :) But that wraps up what is going on in my life. Not much, just going through the motions of college and the Corps. Until next time, thanks and Gig 'Em.

47 Days Until Spring Break!

I am glad the first week is over. It was a fairly easy week, with few things to worry about. Now the temperature has begun to increase in the Hell I am in. I am sore and very tired. I had an awesome weekend. Friday I went with some friends to watch Underworld Evolution; don't go see it. Saturday the same friends and I went to Houston to a club called South Beach. It was freakin' awesome! The had practically naked dancers on boxes and everything. I had a blast. Now the weekend is over, and I keep asking myself why I came back. As a non-reg, I could be having so much more fun. But itll be worth it, right? I finished my scholarship application, for the scholarship that I am beginning. I just need to find sponsors for that. I have been working on something else that I am not going to tell anyone about just yet because it would make some people, especially here at A&M, very mad. I am still single so that is a bit depressing also, but I dont know how I would make a relationship work while being in the Corps anyway. As the weeks go by it is going to get harder and harder, so I will be complaining more and more. Be expecting that. I better get back to my Calculus though. It has been over a week now since I have seen Angie and Diany L I hope they are doing well, along with all of my other friends.

Sweet Home College Station

Well, I made it home okay. I have been going non stop most of the time since I have been here. I got back late last night and today I went and did a lot of my Corps inprocessing and stuff. I still haven't moved out of my old room yet so I still have to do that. I went and got my fish cut today so, no more hair on my head :( It looks alright...I guess. I put a picture up of what it looks like. I should be completely adjusted into my dorm and stuff my Monday, and completely adjusted into the Corps life by May, lol. I still have to memorize camposologies and iron some stuff. Grrr...I don't wanna. Oh and I bought that car I was talking about. It is a '91 Nissan something or other. It's kind of old but it runs fine and it was cheap. Oh and this post is dedicated to Angie Zuniga, because she actually reads my posts and likes reading them. Haha...I love Angie and Diany of course :) Daisy Does America is so funny. Anyway...I changed my schedule up for the spring up a lot today. I am taking 18 hours...Intro to Human Geography, Intro to Sociology, Geography of Texas, Seatime and Maritime Affairs, Math Concepts: Calculus, and Argumentation and Debate. It should go alright. Then after this summer I will come in with 60 hours exactly. It is working out pretty good, so when I come in for my third year I will have my 95 hours and I can get my Aggie RING...WHOOP!!! I am so out of shape and every time I go to the rec it is closed and more than likely I am going to eat McDonalds tonight, lol. I miss my family already. Diego is starting to talk but he calls me 'Na.' He's crazy for a one year old. Well thats about all thats going on in my life. I am still searching for that magical wardrobe to Narnia also. If anyone has found it, let me know, and I swear I won't try to take over. Well thats it for now. Before I go here are some words of wisdom from Beyonce: "Won't you come over and check up on it, I'm gone let em check up on it, watch it while I check up on it, Dip it, pop it, twork it, stop it, check on me tonight." Thanks and Gig 'Em :)

My Girl

It is official. I've been thinking about this for about 8 months, and I made my decision last night. Me and my good friend Desiree, have been close for several years now. We live about 4 hours away from each other and I rarely get to see her, but we have still stayed close, perhaps got even closer. Well we talked about getting married and now its official. If we are both 28 and single we are going to get married. I think I will be very happy if this happens, and it gives us ten years, plus someone whom I love to spend my life with. If we meet someone then we can part our own separate ways and be happy as well, but we will still have the same platonic relationship. I'm excited. I love my girl :)

Besides getting engaged, everything else is awesome. I am not working anymore, and I am just getting ready to go back home. I am trying to see some friends for a bit before I go and I think I am going to get a car today. I hope atleast. I went to a club with Josh and Morgan on Sunday night, and had a blast. I met some really cool people and I can't wait to go back. I'll write more when I get back to College Station. Thanks to all who actually read my blog, thats really cool, and Gig 'Em!!

Curse You Vince Young!

Curse You Vince Young!!!
In the words of the Wayne's Brothers on White Chicks, "I am sooo frikin' pissed." I can't believe USC lost. It was as if USC was playing Vince Young. Bastard. Oh well, the UT band sucked anyway. Wow, I am bitter today. It was a good game though, I give 'em that much. Besides the bitterness, I am doing good. I have been working of course, getting ready to go back to the Promised Land, and trying to catch up with friends form around here. I made some New Year's Resolutions for the '06. They are as follows:

1. Stay in shape and get a six pack...which should not be hard with the Corps and stuff.

2. We have physical fitness tests in the Corps every so often, and my goals for that is over 20 pullups, and over 100 pushups in 2 minutes.

3. Academically, over a 3.0....yea I had some trouble with grades this semester.

Really thats about all...nothing too drastic or anything, just stuff that'll involve my dedication. Well thats all for now. T2yl...thanks and Gig 'Em!